haiku: blah....

looking at the knife
sharp dangerous and lethal
it is so tempting

i want it to end
but that is not possible
nothing i can do

study and prepare
i cannot stand the pressure
the stress gets to me

but go on i must
stop crying, must stop crying
have to stop crying

what can i do now
first i have to stop crying
and then go to sleep

I'd understand if you'd like to know
if i loved you, why i forgo
if i'm asked to explain i won't say no
that much and more, to you i owe

why did this relationship have to break
why do we have to go through this ache
was everything we did a big mistake
did i truly have to press the brake?

never meant to be

no it was never meant to be
this love between you and me
friends around us could all forsee
that we would break up eventually

we tried our best not to let it fall
put in what we could, gave it our all
i tried, i did, i wanted to stall
when it could not last, i made the call

i'm sorry i have to make you suffer
i hope you'll realise that this is better
maybe one day we'll again share laughter
for tears cannot last forever

summer is coming, you'll see me again
whatever you do, don't bring me more pain
don't be surprise if tears flow like rain
if and when you ask me to explain